Actor Sanjana Sanghi, who will make her film debut in what will be actor Sushant Singh Rajput’s final film, Dil Bechara, has shared a tearful goodbye for Sushant, who died on Sunday. “I’m grateful to everybody who believed Sushant is an artist beyond excellence,” she said in a video, carried by Hindustan Times along with a news report.

“Abhi toh itna kuch baaki tha, Sushant? (We had so much to do, Sushant),” Sanjana wrote in her caption. “I refreshed my web pages a 100 times hoping I’m reading some sort of horrible joke. I’m not equipped to process any of this. I don’t think I ever will be. I’m definitely not equipped to articulate my feelings, this is me failing, but trying.” Sushant is suspected to have died of suicide but the police are yet to find a ‘note’.

She continued, “After 2 years of seemingly all the possible difficulties one single film can face, with all sorts of crap constantly being written, and being relentlessly pursued. We were supposed to FINALLY see our film - my first film, and what you told me you believed was your best film yet, together.”

Sanjana added, “In the middle of our 16 hour shoot days, you’d tell me that being and becoming Manny, made you happy. But you’d also fleetingly mention being anyone other than yourself made you happy. I was too ill equipped to understand the depth of what you meant.”

In her video message, Sanjana recalled how encouraging Sushant was, and that he said he saw infinite potential in her. “I just want to promise you that everyone who loves will forever be grateful for the gift that you’ve left behind,” she said.

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She added in her note, “Amidst your struggle, you somehow found a way and had a desire to yell out to me from the opposite side of set screaming ‘Rockstar, itni achi acting thodi na karte hain paagal!’; To guide me over things big & small through our film’s process, To tell me to conserve my energy on set; To discuss even the smallest nuance you thought could change the narrative of a scene and would whole heartedly accept my disagreement; To discuss ways in which we could together forge a brighter educational future for the children of India. You were a force Manny, and you always will be. We’re going to spend an eternity to try and make sense of what you’ve left us behind with, and I personally never will be able to. I simply wish you never left us behind in the first place. Just know, you have a country full of millions, looking up at you, smiling at you, thankful for you. As you smile back at us, from up above. The fact that you get to spend the rest of your time by your mother’s side, I know you gives the only happiness you wanted in the world. John Green wrote this, in our beloved book, The Fault In Our Stars, from my character to yours, but here is me, Sanjana, saying this to you, Sushant: You gave me a forever, within a limited number of days, and for that. I’m forever grateful. A forever of learnings, and memories.”

The actor was found dead at his sixth floor apartment in Bandra (West). While the police have confirmed that he has died by suicide, no ‘note’ was found from his residence. Sushant’s team shared a message for his fans: “It pains us to share that Sushant Singh Rajput is no longer with us. We request his fans to keep him in their thoughts and celebrate his life, and his work like they have done so far. We request media to help us maintain privacy at this moment of grief.”

Earlier in the day, Dil Bechara director Mukesh Chhabra was seen outside Sushant’s Bandra house, just before his body was taken for a post-mortem.