Lady Gaga says rape at 19 developed a psychotic disorder

By: News Desk      Published: 11:21 AM, 22 May, 2021
Lady Gaga says rape at 19 developed a psychotic disorder
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Lady Gaga has told new details about sexual assault she suffered when she was 19. Speaking on The Me You Can’t See, Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry’s new Apple TV+ series about mental health, she said the rape that she first disclosed in 2014 was by a music producer and left her pregnant.

“I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off,’” she said. “And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and I just froze and  I don’t even remember.” She said “the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner”.

She did not name the producer, and said: “I do not ever want to face that person again.”

Gaga first discussed the attack with radio DJ Howard Stern in 2014, saying: “I was a shell of my former self at one point.” In 2015, she said: “I didn’t tell anyone for I think seven years. I didn’t know how to accept it. I didn’t know how to not blame myself or think it was my fault. It changed who I was completely. It changed my body, it changed thoughts.”

She said the attacks left her with post-traumatic stress disorder. In 2016, she rebuked Piers Morgan for belittling her condition as “vainglorious nonsense” and questioning why she didn’t initially report the rape. That year she performed with survivors of sexual assault at the Oscars.

Speaking to Winfrey in 2020, she said: “I never dealt with it, and then all of a sudden I started to experience this incredible intense pain throughout my entire body that mimicked the illness I felt after I was raped.”

In The Me You Can’t See, she again describes her delayed traumatised response, saying she experienced a “total psychotic break”.

“First I felt full-on pain, then I felt numb, and then I was sick for weeks after. I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner [by] my parent’s house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because I had been abused, and I was locked away in a studio for months.”

Around two years after surviving the abuse, she released her debut album The Fame in 2008 and became globally successful, with five US No 1 albums since. She also started an acting career, most notably with her Oscar-nominated lead role in 2018’s A Star Is Born.

She will next rejoin Tony Bennett for a duets album following their 2014 collection Cheek to Cheek, and star in Ridley Scott film House of Gucci alongside Adam Driver, Al Pacino and more.