Nadia Jamil opens up on shaving her head post-chemo

By: News Desk      Published: 01:19 PM, 26 May, 2020
Nadia Jamil opens up on shaving her head post-chemo

Pakistan's highly respected actress Nadia Jamil shared details of her heart-wrenching cancer diagnosis and after chemotherapy she shaved her head.

Turning to Instagram, the actress penned a note and wrote: “The night of Laylatulqadr I was reading Surah Yousaf & the words Fasabirun Jamil stayed with me from an ayat of the Surah. Not just patience. But a patience of deep beauty,” she wrote as she shared pictures of her shaved head.

She disclosed how her hair had been falling in huge clumps which had been ‘petrifying’ to deal with.

“That night I washed & conditioned it sobbing, with rose smelling shampoo. I knew this was goodbye 2 a part of myself I had hid behind 4 years. My hair, like many of us, had been my vanity, the face I wanted 2 show to the outside world. If it wasn't looking good I felt nervous, bad about myself,” she shared.

“I have to admit it was an ugly death. That night I laughed & cried with the woman in the mirror. She looked quite crazy. I looked like an electrified laama. Wayne's World meets Malang Baba,” she wrote.

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The night of Laylatulqadr I was reading Surah Yousaf & the words Fasabirun Jamil stayed w me from an ayat of the Surah. Not just patience..but a patience of deep beauty. My hair had been falling in huge clumps regardless of the ice cap. The centre had practically gone. I was left w the front & a little on the sides. It was petrifying. That night I washed & conditioned it sobbing, w rose smelling shampoo. I knew this was goodbye 2 a part of my self I had hid behind 4 years. My hair, like many of us,had been my vanity, the face I wanted 2 show the outside world. If it wasn't looking good I felt nervous,bad about myself. & now it was gone. And I have to admit it was an ugly death. That night I laughed & cried w the woman in the mirror. She looked quite crazy. I looked like an electrified laama. Wayne's World meets Malang Baba. Honestly that night, I never prayed 4 my hair. Or even my vanity 2be protected. I prayed that I love the woman who emerges from under it. I have never loved her..myself...as I should. I prayed 4 my strength of character. I prayed I fulfill my responsibilities 2 my son's,especially my foster sons, 2 the other children who i know will come in2 my life & 2 my best friends ...my son's Rakae & Mir. I prayed I learn how 2 self parent & become a better adult while retaining the love, spontaneity & fun I have in my heart. I prayed I learn 2 put myself first so I can take care of myself & others w empathy. If I am a mess, I am useless 2 those I love. I prayed 4 strategies 2 end my relationship w loneliness & fear,that stems from child abuse. & I prayed 4 my creativity 2 be blessed. I saw my weaknesses,they must be worked on by me & recognised my strengths,they will be appreciated by me. I closed my eyes & smiled at the love I am surrounded w. It will never again not be enough. It is. I prayed & mediated deep in2 the night. The morning after Laylatulqadr a kind gentleman called Rob came & clipped my hair. What was left Chotu,Ami & I tried 2 shave off,leaving nicks,bloody cuts & my beautifully shaped head. I looked at my eyes, my smile. This is Nadia Jamil. I held her hand & we marched off 4 #chemotherapy That is another story. I❤️U

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She added: “I prayed 4 strategies 2 end my relationship with loneliness & fear, that stems from child abuse & I prayed 4 my creativity 2 be blessed,” she said.

Nadia concluded saying: “I looked at my eyes, my smile. This is Nadia Jamil. I held her hand & we marched off 4 #chemotherapy. That is another story.”